every ship must sail away

My parents seem like they are in elementary school sometimes. They have been divorced for ten years and NOW they really start to hate each other. I always thought I was lucky because we could still go out as a family even though they were divorced. They were friends. They'd help each other out. And my mom always comes to holidays at my dad's parents house. My grandma and my mom are really good friends. I really thought everything was great. But this year has been really hard. I turned 18 so my mom has been struggling financially because she doesn't get child support anymore. My brother moved to my dad's house which was probably a really good for both my mom and my dad. My dad finally knows what it is like to be an actual parent and my mom and brother fought way too much. I thought I'd be getting away from it all coming to college but I still get phone calls from both of them bitching about each other. It wouldn't bother me so much if they acted like I was choosing sides. My mom had to sign some paper for my dad for his taxes so he could claim me and I could get insurance through Ford. Apparently my mom hung up on him and I get phone calls from both of them screaming. It's a great environment to live in. I kind of wished I was living with Kim this summer.

I don't see why people are with people they clearly shouldn't be with. I guess it's love? If love is staying with someone just because you want a relationship or sex or the title, that results in a bad break up or divorce, that really sucks. I don't see why people are attracted to people who aren't good for them. I really wish I didn't like the person I kind of like. hah. It's a bad idea. Not that anything is going to happen of course, but still. This is why I'm stupid. I always kind of like the guys who would like me. Someone I'd actually have a chance with. But this time, I like someone who would clearly not like me. Oh well. Summer is coming and I'll be back at home (shootmeintheface) and I can work a lot and go camping and kayaking and be outside. It'll be a great break from school and people and my stupid decisions.