GAH

you know, I'm really glad that no one reads this thing because I hate you all. Well..not all..but some of my friends seriously piss me off. My one friend is sooo intelligent and wants to pursue a career in music but oh no, he wants to go to HFCC. Not that there is anything wrong with with community colleges but he's in the top 10 % of his class! He's brilliant and I really think he has so much potential. He'd love EMU and the marching band. But oh no, his parent's don't want him to make a mistake like his sister did. His older sister came here and apparently hated it. It really pisses me off to no end because they are not the same person and it's not like he wouldn't have any friends here. He would more than likely be in the marching band. Another reason he wants to live at home is because his minimum wage paying job at fucking Little Caesars. He loves it there but seriously, is he going to work there forever? "Oh what did you do with your degree in english composition?" "I make pizzas." Seriously?! what the fuck. And now he got accepted to U of M Dearborn and is probably going to go there and just commute. He thinks that it is a much better school but it's not like they have a marching band. He is probably going to get a degree in english and not do what he really wants to do, which is music. gah. Stop being safe. Taking fucking risks, no matter how cliche that sounds.
Another friend of mine plays the sax. She's a junior and is stressing because her director doesnt' give her much attention so she thinks she's not that great. But she is!! She is a great jazz player and she loves to solo. You should have seen her when she was a freshman. She was so dead-set on being a music teacher. She loved the director and was loved learning anything and everything about music. She reminded me of me...Somehow, all that enthusiasm has disappeared. She has so much potential, too! But she's not taking any band next year because of other classes. She is taking AP Gov instead of Jazz band. She's not interested in government, why is she taking the goddamn class?! Jazz band would really benefit her if she is really serious about becoming a music major in college. She really loves music...why not take the classes?! I took three band classes last year and although the counselors didn't like it, it really benefited me. I learned a lot about helping the underclassmen in concert band and it helped develop some conducting skills as well. I know I didnt' take AP Chem or AP Calc, but that's not what I love. I love music so I took music. The girl's mom wants her to take as many advanced classes as she can so she gets college credit and they're "academic" blah blah blah. Fuck that.

I'm so sick of seeing my friends not do what the want, due to parents or directors or friends.

When did people stop living their life the way they want to? I know I do..it's really a shame.




Also, if you weren't so condescending, I might want to hang out with you more. But that will never change.