Q. Why have I been updating recently?

A. The people that I used to talk to about anything and everything don't seem to be too interested in being friends.



For the record, I do know how it feels to be completely ignored. You're not the only one who had a friend that completely shut them out. And if you ask yourself why you have no friends? Think of how you ruined many good friendships in the past. No one did anything that terrible to you so suck it up. No one feels sorry for you.


You know in those movies where the people plan out what they'd like to say to a particular person? Yeah, story of my life.

Ladies and Gentlemen

You know what I hate?

When I ask someone a question, and they completely ignore me. Then they wonder why I don't talk much. I wonder why! Because I just get pushed to the side and no one even cares.

When I'm so bored I'm about to pull my eyeballs out. I hate not being busy.

When people from high school at like they are so much better than me because they are busy. No, I'm not going to watch one-acts tomorrow. Because 1. I'll end up busting Eric's knee caps. 2. I'm out of high school, I'm not a loser. and 3. I've been down that road. I was in one-act for four years. Going with all of you is not the same as actually being in it with the old people. I can't imagine one-act with Steph, David, or Frankie. I'm not too fond of going with a bunch of freshmen either.

When people change with the wind. If you want to make plans with me, sweet, make plans with me. But when something better comes up, I'm not going to be too fond of hanging out with you when you have nothing going on.

gah

I feel like I'm suffocating.

I used to miss allen park because I didn't have any friends here
But what happens when I don't have any friends at home or at school?
This sucks.

I don't have a job anymore.
I'm doing bad in my classes.
I don't even enjoy basketball band.
Something is wrong.

2008

new years resolutions

+ make friends at eastern
+ become a better musician
+ be nicer to family members
+ call dad more often
+ volunteer at least once a month
+ get a full time job over the summer
+ save up money for a new trumpet
+ read at least 50 books
+ get above a 3.5 G.P.A for winter and fall semester
+ clean room



I hate feeling like I have no friends here at Eastern. It's quite possibly the worst feeling ever. I really try to be someone that people would want to have as a friend but no one likes an insecure boring person.